Wednesday, August 10, 2016
A million voices in my head. One says “let go”. One says “attack back”. One
says “it was meant to be and you couldn’t control the situation”. One says
"it was your entire fault". One says "wait a little darling,
you'll find some comforting hands". One says "You'll be lonely
forever, try as much as you can". One says “you’ll get over it; time will
heal your wounds”. One says “you’ll be punished forever and you will have scars
to prove your tragic past”.
A million reasons to forgive yet I chose the million to deny. Drama tears
me up inside yet for it i still strive.
A million reasons to be open and say what i feel, yet i choose to go on the
blinding road that lures me with the hope "you don’t have to speak, they should understand".
A million things left unsaid keep me restless all day long. Who said things
are better left unsaid? Nothing is better left unsaid. Those unborn words
swirling in my head keep me a million miles from sanity. I go over the same
thoughts a million times but i don’t let them spill...and my stupid reason for
not saying them out loud is because the timing isn't right? As I question the
lack of logic in my mind i still persist to walk the same way.
A year ago I thought everything was in place; my life was planned for 10
years straight. It was step after step, nothing was supposed to change...and
then those million opinions shot at my face. Do i do what he said or she said
or what do i even do? So little time and so much to decide, I refresh that same
search in Google hoping for new things to pop up, it’s like looking in the
mirror repeatedly for a new face to appear.
A million things I did wrong that I cannot change, but they have left a scar
deeper than anything that has been. Since when did I become this person who
trembles on stage? Who fights to keep her tears in their place? Who gets
anxiety attacks and panics over every little thing? Who cries on her birthday
because she wants to be all alone and stuck in one place?
A million reasons to believe the universe has well in store for me but a
million different people who want to make it seem differently.
A million reasons to trust someone. But only one reason suffices to make me
trust no one.A million voices in my head that tell me she was wrong and I didn’t deserve
it, but there’s still one voice that says forgive all and move on. They say one
voice is powerful enough but why can’t I listen? That one voice might be right
but it doesn’t mean that it wasn’t wrong. I make myself believe I am a good
person, but I still have the urge to explode over those who hurt me and then I
blame it on my sun sign when I don’t even believe that deeply in horoscopes.
People have had misconceptions about me for as long as I can remember and
it’s not their fault because maybe I just project like that. But it kills me to
know that there might be no one who will ever know who I really am, and just
believe naked assumptions with no open-mindedness or proof.
Monday, January 4, 2016
MIA?!
I'll be posting soon after my first session of Edexcel AS level examinations :)
Sunday, July 13, 2014
A new Study Technique! :D
Hey guys, i haven't been updating a lot lately (sorry too much school work!)
But i have something interesting to share. I have come across a great way to study! Finally, i realized why i couldn't give 100% attention to what i was studying, all along.
The "study method" i have come across is called the "Pomodoro Technique" and i have personally found it to be very helpful, and i have noticed more productivity in my tasks.
This technique, not only helps in productivity, but time management as well!
According to facts, our brains can have an attention span from 10 minutes to 40 minutes (average). So, continuous studying for hour(s) may not benefit us, therefore the Pomodoro Technique.
This technique is pretty simple and not as complicated as it sounds. This is what you have to do:
But i have something interesting to share. I have come across a great way to study! Finally, i realized why i couldn't give 100% attention to what i was studying, all along.
The "study method" i have come across is called the "Pomodoro Technique" and i have personally found it to be very helpful, and i have noticed more productivity in my tasks.
This technique, not only helps in productivity, but time management as well!
According to facts, our brains can have an attention span from 10 minutes to 40 minutes (average). So, continuous studying for hour(s) may not benefit us, therefore the Pomodoro Technique.
This technique is pretty simple and not as complicated as it sounds. This is what you have to do:
- Decide on the task to be done
- Set the timer to 25 minutes
- Work on the task until the timer rings
- Take a short break (5 minutes) after the timer rings
- After four pomodori (the intervals are called pomodori), take a longer break (15–30 minutes)
So basically, since we can "recharge" our brain after every 25 mins, information will be absorbed better.
You can get more information here:
And this blog as well:
~ My next post will be about the things i do in the Pomodori ~
Hope this helped!
~LoveNiks
Monday, June 30, 2014
sorry guys haven't really gotten much time to post on this blog or my other blogs. I'm too tangled up with school work for now, but got some interesting stuff on the way! :)
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www.niksgratitudes.blogspot.com
www.ighelp.blogspot.com
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tysm guys
love ya'll
~LoveNiks
visit my other blogs:
www.niksgratitudes.blogspot.com
www.ighelp.blogspot.com
and follow me on my twitter: twitter.com/niksarianator
tysm guys
love ya'll
~LoveNiks
Monday, June 16, 2014
I was just laying on my bed, getting distracted from the chapter of ICT that i was reading, thinking about our life at this moment...i feel like it has become more complicated as more generations pass by. Not only do we have to know our school syllabus, but also things going on in the news, in sports, extra information on what we are learning, etc etc. We have to know so much. One textbook doesn't suffice; we need another textbook for reference, study materials, worksheets, other guides and we need to do extra research on the internet. Though this gives us an advantage of having lots of knowledge about the intricate world around us, it still causes stress and feeling of "not having enough time". Sometimes, there is so much to do, that we end up escaping that world for a while and get distracted by devices, internet, etc. We have so much pressure to learn so much. Sometimes, i feel so dumb when a person in my class uses some short form like RSS (just an example) and i have no clue what that even is. Maybe that's what increases the pressure. Sometimes it's hard to cope up with this and causes an imbalance of mood or whatever that is. Why is it that we have to know everything. i mean, is that really fair? What if I don't like watching sports...why should i know about it? ..Or if i'm not much interested in Computer Science, why should i know the different problems or extra knowledge which is out of the exam syllabus. Is it really required? Sometimes i feel like the world has too many expectations for our generation. They say the trend is - the generations keep getting smarter, but isn't the overall pressure and the expectations increasing at a faster rate? I may be wrong. But that's what i think right now.
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Thursday, April 24, 2014
just straightened my hair without using any heat!
its simple..tell me if you want a tutorial!
~Love Niks
its simple..tell me if you want a tutorial!
~Love Niks
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
#OOTD #coraltop #shorts #fashion #newlybought
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Friday, March 21, 2014
i just made my own Ear cuff ...i used a paperclip and a bead..that's it! should i post a video tutorial on it?
